Firefly

As I woke up, the Sun was shining bright
I tried to remember what I'd dreamt that night
I find it funny and a bit sad
That the dreams in which I've died are the best I've had
I called her up and I asked her out
Picked her up at the roundabout


We brought some wine and some paper cups
We drank and it lifted our spirits up
We drove to a graveyard on a hill
Huddled together against the chill
And we watched the sky turn gray
And laughed and danced through the field of graves


The firefly came out and said
"Do you know what goes on in your head?"
I replied, "If only I knew,
I would have confessed it all to you."
It began to shine, shine like a star
And we went back to the car


And the news reports on the radio
Said it's best if we drove slow
The rain had made the roads slick
And the fog was coming down thick
So I sped up and turned on the lights
As we drove into the night


And to this day, I still regret
And everyday as the Sun begins to set
I drive to the graveyard on the hill
The fireflies are circling still
And I watch the sky turn gray
And leave a rose on her grave

As I fall apart

I have poured out my heart

Right here for you to see

These words I write are a part

Of my soul and of me

My feelings lie on this page and

Waiting for someone to read 

And know I'm nearing the end

Know the reason my heart bleeds

Letting you see through me

Letting you wander through my heart

So that you can know me

And watch me as I fall apart

I'm sharing my pain

I'm spilling my thoughts

Walking down the memory lane

Cause that's all I've got

So these are my words

They're all that I'm leaving behind

Read them and forget your pain

And watch me as I fall apart

The Last December

The darkness creeps in slow,
Strange fear I feel.
The stars light up the sky,
Alone I drop and kneel.

The fire's burning low,
Its down to glowing embers.
The cold engulfs me,
Touching with its sinewy fingers.

The shadows close in round,
Questions they ask me.
A court is in session,
But where's the jury?

My conscience haggles me,
Guilt, there is none.
And I ask myself,
What have I done?

"What were you doing,
The last December?"
I give my usual line,
"I don't remember."

And I ...
Am contemplating suicide,
Yet again.
And I ...
Have got nowhere to hide,
From the pain.

I watch the western sky,
Awaiting the sunrise.
The first rays enter the room,
And then I realise.

You were my greatest gift,
My only treasure.
You were my guiding star,
You were my measure.

But life's so wicked,
It cheats you of your hope.
When it takes your love away,
Then in endless darkness you grope.

And I ...
Am contemplating suicide,
Yet again.
And I ...
Have got nowhere to hide,
From the pain.

Someone like you

You ask me often what kind of girl do I want

How she should be

And what do I look for

You ask me often who's my kind of a girl

I don't reply

And I only smile

You ask me often what qualities I look for

I say a love for music

And a love for reading

You ask me often what's the girl of my dreams like

She has an amazing sense of humour, I reply

And she's smart

You ask me often what I search for in a girl

I tell you I haven't thought much about it

It will be instinctive

You ask me often if she should be beautiful

From the inside, I tell you

You smile hearing this

You ask me often what kind of girl do I want

I say nothing, I only smile

When all I want to say is

Someone like you

Questions

How does one erase the pain?

Hide from all the torment and the shame?
Why does one have to suffer?
All the answers I could not discover.
Why is everything so lost?
And the ground covered with the thick frost?
Why do the memories remain?
And make you cry again and again?
Where do I have to look for the answers?
The pain's like a growing cancer.
Where is all the happiness?
The beauty and the selflessness?
Why does the darkness surround us?
And our fate keeps decieving us?
Is everything just sweet lies?
Why do my eyes bleed and my heart cries?
Why do hopes have to fail?
And the sweet smell turn stale?
Why am I full of questions?
What is my destination?
Where do I really have to go?
How and when will I come to know?

The answers

Finally rid from all the pain
Freed from the torment and the shame
No more do I have to suffer
The answer I had to but discover
Everything that was lost, I've gained again
The frost has finally thawed away
Those memories I've erased
That left me crying like crazed
Cause I've finally found the answer
And thus I've cured the cancer
The happiness is within me now
The beauty is all around now
The darkness has given way to light
My fate has brought me a new delight
The truth was hidden within the lies
And now gone are my heart's cries
I've been blessed with new hopes
And the sweet smell for which my heart gropes
All the questions have been answered
My destination I have discovered
Cause where I needed to go
Through you, my love, I have come to know

Rendezvous

Eight o'clock in the night

Wipe the sleep from my eyes

It had felt just like an ordinary day

But at the Security Check, such a surprise,

A beautiful angel materialised

Our eyes met as you passed me by

And I sensed some connection in a blink of an eye

And I had to figure out what I'd be missing

So I turned to you and asked you if you wanted to…

Talk to me and pass some pretty moments

And forgo the loneliness’ torments

And that conversation that we embarked

Something new in my life you had sparked

Well here I am writing you a song

Even though it’s been a month, it seems so long

That I’ve known you

Feels like I’ve grown with you

That day while drinking coffee

I was feeling pretty lonely

That’s why I turned to you and asked you if you wanted to…

Talk to me and pass some pretty moments

And forgo the loneliness’ torments

And that conversation that we embarked

Something new in my life you had sparked

I hope we continue our friendship forever

And cherish every moment we spend together

I have found myself a new friend

And it all happened in a moment

When you smiled at me

And I turned to you and asked you if you wanted to…

Talk to me and pass some pretty moments

And forgo the loneliness’ torments

And that conversation that we embarked

Something new in my life you had sparked

For you

The night turns slowly to light
The Sun shimmers on the horizon
I wake up beside you
And remember the night that passed me by
Those sweet hours now gone
Eluded my grasp, those wistful moments
Stare at your mesmerising face
Thinking how lucky I am to find you
As you lie there, fast asleep
Your hair over your face
Dreaming of things so sweet
My shadow falls on your face
So you won’t feel the glare of the Sun
And the morning passes us by
But still we lie on the field
In sweet embrace, but the time is short
For you have to leave and go back home
All I have then are your memories
And the hope that I’ll see you again
Another night some other time
But till then, every night I’ll dream of you
Whence we’ll walk into the night
And talk of everything under the moon
And I’ll listen to your soothing voice
And watch your dreamy eyes speak to me
I know then that you love me as I do you
The night is long and I thank the Lord for you
Walk with me and never leave
Together we gaze at the moon
And we spoke only through thoughts
Another day ends and your absence haunts me
Confronting me with my loneliness
Please come and stay with me
And I ask for nothing else
For I need you so much closer
With you, my emotions have a closure

Take it all away

My breath is nameless,
Take it all away.
My heart beats for none,
Take it all away.

So alone, so empty,
Take it all away.
My life has no aim,
Take it all away.

All the feelings are dead,
Hurt in the love I never had.
My blood is dried in my veins,
Take it all away.

There's nowhere to run,
And no place left to hide.
Everything reminds me of
That day when I died.
My memories are full of pain,
Take it all away.

Carried Away by the Flow of Time

Carried away by the flow of time,
Waiting in the bright sunshine,
Standing all alone in the fields so green,
Listening to the sounds of nature so clean,
I wait for you, my love, to come,
And take me to a world other than this,
Into a world where all is peace,
Carried away by the flow of time,
Come, my love, into these arms of mine,
We will wait by the shore for the tide to rise,
We will look at the horizon for the beautiful sunrise,
Till the end of days shall arrive,
Into the ocean of love we will dive,
And swim like the fish in the sea,
And wait for the doom so we shall see,
If these beautiful bells will ever chime,
Carried away by the flow of time!

I don't know you anymore

You would hold my hand,
When we lay upon the sand.
You would talk so sweet,
And that's when our souls would meet.

You would walk with me,
You were all my eyes could see.
We would lie during the nights,
Admiring those heavenly lights.

But I don't know you anymore,
I don't recognise your face.
I don't need you anymore,
But I can't forget those days.

You were a sight for sore eyes,
My angel in sweet disguise.
I would share my laughs with you,
And then hold you in my arms and kiss you.

Then things happened that changed the times,
And now I wonder if you were really mine.
Or were you just a shadow of my love?
Were you really the gift to me from above?

But I don't know you anymore,
I don't recognise your face.
I don't need you anymore,
But I can't forget those days.

War!

Thus deepened the chilling silence
The spirits still walked in defiance
On the land, where they as living
Had fought for their land, their mother’s keeping

Ten thousand men met their end
Fighting the war while trying to defend
Their land from the attacker’s lustful crave
But the battles lead but to the grave

Some fight for their motherland
Some fight for their Kings
But why fight for whatever reasons
‘Tis only death that it brings?

The weapons unsheathed, the swords and shields
The men sound their battle cry.
Not to show their wrath, but to hide their fear
For they know they are to die

The kings order their armies around
Each man to him is but a pawn
But what difference does it make
Since only the kings see the next dawn

They go, they go, to battle, to war
To fight, to slay, their enemies to mar
But will they be back from the battle
To kiss their child, to feed their cattle?

Why fight if it only brings the doom?
The clouds of death, on a battlefield forever they loom.
And take away a father, a brother
Or give great grief to a mother

War or Peace? I shall choose the latter
To get a chance to hear the happy chatter
But my children now live away far
Because I am dead, I died in a war.

A Prisoner's Last Words

Pursued by my guilty conscience,
I’m trying to run from the pain.
But no matter how fast I run,
There’s no place for me to hide.

Every day’s a new beginning
To the same old life that I’ve been living.
Just for a few days of comfort,
I sold my soul to the Devil.

I feel the walls close upon me,
Laughing at my fateful destiny.
I offer my final prayer,
With Him lies my last hope.

I have a date with the executioner,
Short though my life has been.
I made some bad decisions,
And the result I’ve seen.

***
I climb onto the square,
Fill my eyes with real sunlight.
I walk slowly towards the noose,
That’ll be around my neck so tight.

So this is the end, my friend,
Lessons I’ve learnt so dearly.
Live your life to the fullest,
And don’t say you lived nearly.